There
is a quote that describes Fran fully - "There are really
only two ways to approach life - as a victim or as a gallant fighter
- and you must decide if you want to act or react, deal your own cards
or play with a stacked deck." Despite the fact that
she had been diagnosed with cancer over 4 years ago, Fran was determined
that it would not interfere with her quality of life.
We didn’t know Fran very long - she came into our lives through
The Clown Alley of London’s clown school in May 2003 to learn
the art of clowning. She already had in mind the kind of clown she
wanted to be - a whiteface character clown. This clown named Corki
had a little red heart nose and wore a baseball outfit, cap turned
jauntily to the side so as not to hide the twinkling eyes.
She joined the Clown Alley of London in September 2003 and was
an active member both in the alley and in the community charity
events where the members volunteer their clown talents. Fran learned
to face paint and used this craft at the fund-raising walks for
Multiple Sclerosis and Heart and Stroke. She walked in the London
Santa Claus Parade with The Clown Alley of London one year - that
was a lot of steps for those tiny clown feet! Even though there
were times when she was not feeling well, she contributed - providing
a snack for our meetings, donating gifts to be given out as door
prizes or red nose awards, just coming to a meeting. That was Fran,
doing what she could when she could.
She became a member of The Clown Jewels, a care clown troupe operating
out of Regional Mental Health Care, and did her clown rounds at
the Mount Hope site. She put a lot of time and effort into organizing
a table depicting all the aspects of clowning for a Mount Hope event.
In addition, when the Clown Alley decided they wanted to do clown
rounds at Chelsey Park Nursing Home, she joined their care clown
troupe The Giggle Gang. "Corki" also participated in the
first annual clown show that the alley presented at Chelsey Park
Nursing Home.
At Wellspring, a cancer support house that offers different programmes,
Fran was very involved. According to their staff, she reached out
to them taking everything she could to help herself deal with this
devastating disease. And then - as she began to feel better - she
reached back and embraced others, giving much, much more in return.
She did her thing, becoming very involved with others, listening,
supporting, volunteering in whatever way she could including answering
phones for them. Fran also talked to community groups, families
and professionals, sharing her story about living with cancer. She
was described as pulling no punches, shooting from the hip with
lots of wit and audiences loved her! Staff said they saw a real
metamorphosis from the time Fran first started coming to Wellspring.
Over the next three to four years she totally changed her image
- she came alive, was brighter, joyful, transfigured, like there
had been a rebirth.
As Fran became more physically exhausted and weaker, her spirit
showed no signs of it. Some days she would be discouraged by the
effects the cancer was having on her body preventing her from being
more active but her spirit never wavered. Her love for people was
always evident.
We last
saw Fran on March 9th when she came out to celebrate the Alley’s
6th birthday party with us and bought her sister as her guest. Fran
seemed to have a great deal of fun as she actively participated
in the games and comradery of the evening. It is with saddened hearts
that we say goodbye to our friend who died on March 15th. We will
miss her smiling face and her tender heart! We are honoured that
she gave us the privilege of one of her last days.
Written and submitted by Judy Carscadden
PRAYER OF A CLOWN
As I stumble through this life,
help me
to create more laughter than tears,
dispense
more cheer than gloom,
spread
more cheer than despair.
Never let me become so indifferent
that I
will fail to see the wonders in the eyes of a child
or the
twinkle in the eyes of the aged.
Never let me forget that my total effort
is to
cheer people,
make them
happy and forget momentarily
all the
unpleasantness in their lives.
And in my final moment,
may I
hear You whisper:
"When you made My people smile, you made Me smile."
-Anonymous-
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